Chapter 2 - Miracles

Allow me to tell you about the kind of God I serve...

I thought there was no way I could get into a post-graduate paralegal program... I did.

I was told by OSAP that I had an outstanding balance and would not qualify to get OSAP for the paralegal program... research showed that debt was paid in full years ago... I got OSAP.

I worried about doing well in the program, since so many students had come from University with a background in law... I graduated with distinction and made the Dean's Honour List.

The Miracles Continued.

On July 13, I received an email from the College telling me I had an outstanding balance of over $1,340 that needed to be paid in order for me to get my transcripts and officially complete the program. This meant that I needed $1,340 in July to complete my program, and another $1,000 by September 9 to write my licensing exam. 

I had NO IDEA how I was going to get that money. 

On July 21, I received a cheque in the mail from the government for back pay for the UCCB. It was for $840!! I bawled my eyes out. I couldn't believe that God had provided the money I needed! That money combined with the $500 I had saved was exactly enough to cover what I owed to the College. 

On July 22, my debt with the College was paid in full! Thank You, God!

Because this miracle had taken place, I doubted that another one would happen. I settled on the idea that I would not be writing the licensing exam in October. I figured there was no way for me to get $1,000 by September 9 to pay to write that exam. 

I thought I had reached the end of my miracle limit... just call me Doubting Thomas. 

I kept telling myself that I would just write the exam in February, that it was no big deal. I was very sad about it, but I accepted it. I gave up on the idea of writing in October because I just couldn't see how another miracle could take place. But, I was wrong. 

Today another miracle happened.  God provided the money I need to write my licensing exam!! I cried, again! I paid my fees and I am officially writing the licensing exam on October 21! 

THAT is the kind of God I serve!

Chapter 1 - Honesty (continued)

Since Cailyn left home, I am finding it difficult to get back on track. 

I spent the majority of last week at home. It felt like part of me was missing and I didn't know what to do with that. Cailyn and I used to do everything together; she was the one who used to drag me out of the house to do things, and I am sure it will take time before my complete autonomy returns. Kaden is a homebody like me. He is quite fine to hang out here, or to go outside with his friends. He is not much for shopping or going out, and I am okay with that, I just need to learn how to do it on my own again. And, that is weird. 

I have set new goals for myself, so I have something to be working on, for me. I have a feeling that this year is going to turn out to be more about me and getting things started for our future than I even realize. 

Here are a few of my personal goals for the year:

1. Get a job.

2. Get licensed.

3. Hiatus from Starbucks, Tim Hortons, and fast food joints.

4. Finding resolution to a recent situation.

5. Do some weight training and/or exercise every day.

6. Lose some more weight.

7. Stay involved in church and Friday night group.

8. Join a midweek ladies group.

9. Get a new-to-me car.

10. Grow stronger and more confident in myself.

Some may see this list as overwhelming, and that's okay. These are my goals. I need these things to work towards. I need things to stay motivated. And, I am excited about all of them.

Cheers to a year filled with change and personal growth!

Chapter 1 - Honesty

"Share each other’s burdens, and in this way obey the law of Christ.  If you think you are too important to help someone, you are only fooling yourself. You are not that important.

Pay careful attention to your own work, for then you will get the satisfaction of a job well done, and you won’t need to compare yourself to anyone else.  For we are each responsible for our own conduct." Galatians 6: 2-5.

I have been thinking a lot about the concept of honesty lately, and it has led me to this challenge I am starting...

For the next 30 days, I am going to be an open book. I will share honestly what is going on in my life. This will include the good and not so good.

One thing that has helped me process all the things I have gone through in my life, is that I would be able to use the knowledge I gained from those experiences to help other people. Well, to be honest, I haven't been doing much of that. I rarely talk to anyone about my life, as though it is some big secret. Well, I don't want it to be a secret. 

I want to share my life experiences with others. I am NOT TOO IMPORTANT to help someone else. 

So, here it is. I may blog just once a day, or I may blog more. 

Here is Paula, the Open Book.